No. Give temporary custody to your mom and go to a different shelter. Appy for state aide whatever state it is. Try to get yourself on track for your son. I know how you feel. But you have to tell you're mother you are sick and you're trying to get better. If she's not so caring and for that option then don't bother with her. But think about your son.

Its hard to open up to my mom. We never really had a mother daughter relationship. I dont feel comfortable tellin her EVERYTHING cuz I kno she'll run off and tell the world!!! Smh

if you were serious enough about committing sucide to write a note and give it to someone then maybe you should give temporary custody to your mom and do what you feel will get you on track im not saying go to a mental instution if you do not think that will help because everyone copes differently i think that the best thing for you to do would be to first look at whats got you to this mental state then find a practice things that are safe and healthy for both you and your son that help to deal with the stressors that trigger these thoughts and emotions

Stay Strong
Starlite

Ive been fine since Tuesday( the day I wrote the note), but no one believes me. That night I had a really long talk wit my bestfriend( who I gave the note to). I was ready to focus and look past it put all hell broke loose Thursday.

A psych stay may not be as bad as you picture.
The one I was committed to last May (2 weeks stay) was ok - I came out feeling better. But, some psych wards are only jails - do you know the facility you would likely be sent to?
You have a lot more to deal with then I do - having a son changes your situation from mine a lot.

I was at one facility in Delaware for a few hrs. But since Im stayin wit my mom in York Pa Im not sure what they're like or even where they are. I actually wanted to stay in the facility!! Idk how the plan changed as I slept fro a few hrs!